i am in the waiting.
i am relying.
i am trusting.
but why does my desire seem so far away. i have been through a lot, my heart is on my sleeve. i am anticipating good things, yet having a hard time thinking they will happen.
God has seemed very far from me, and my desire to seek him out just has not been there.
Monday night husband and I watched Father of Lights and it changed my attitude, my feeling. God is so real and he is in the waiting. He is in the waiting for me! I knew then I need to put everything back on him, I was getting tired.
I want to be in fully surrender to him, recklessly abandoned. I started reading a book, that we have had for a while. I love it when God has you get things but then they don't interest you until the moment He knows you need to hear it!
I was feeling good, the sun was shining and I knew that where ever God took me, I was ready.
but then unexpectedly i felt like i was knocked to the ground.
I was in shock. I didn't know what to think. I just cried.
I know God has a plan and I am going to walk out in Faith. My emotions and feelings might be out of whack for a little bit, but I have a Daddy who can give me peace and can be strong while i am weak.
Its like the footsteps poem-
The Lord replied,
"The times when you have
seen only one set of footprints,
is when I carried you."
God is carrying me now. And i can take comfort in that.
I am thankful for what I do have, for my husband, my mentor Faith, my lovingly positive sister and my family.
Thank you Jesus for being so FAITHFUL! I have nothing to fear.
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