Bridge over Troubled waters

Well, its been a rough week... filled with hope, then disappointment. But God is looking out! I have been deeply comforted and encouraged through worship and the people he has placed in my life. I am so very thankful that God has my back and that there is nothing I need to fear.

my lil Fedor giving me some loving comfort

I know God has a plan and I want his plan to be my plan. I want to live a life of his Calling! We will be having some changes happen in the next couple of weeks that some would call radical or crazy...but God doesn't lead us to be comfortable he wants us to be willing to do what he wants and when he wants us to do it! Husband and I know this and are seeking him and believing for big things!

I left off last post with our beginning journey of trying to get pregnant... Both Matt's and my desire is to be parents- to raise our children to know God and his amazing love for us and to develop their own relationship with him.

So its been a long year- with the desire always there at the forefront.

After that "false-positive" we started to actively seek answers. I started going to an OBGYN, that I will not name... it was a bad experience :( I went on Clomid and hated every minute of it, it made me feel so funny and i would get hot flushes all the time, you would think i was going through menopause... it was bad and i stayed on that for about 5 months with absolutely nothing! And from what the doctor could tell was that i had not ovulated at all.... so in November i really felt I didn't want to go to the OBGYN anymore and i for sure did not want to take the stupid CLOMID! so we took a break... and i would get my cycle randomly, and all the time wishing that this would be my last period. I started taking herbal supplements which i was excited for cause i will always look for the most natural way....

So when nothing was really happening and i was not being consistent I went back to my family doctor who i have not seen since that heart wrenching day. We talked and it was really good- I was feeling more at peace with everything- that year had been a long journey and God really used it to help me grow and understand more about his character, and i am very very thankful for that!

She suggested I go to a Fertility Specialist- she said they would be able to run more tests and pinpoint the problem- so she set us up with a doctor in Grand Rapids who also has and office in Lansing a couple days of week.

Let me tell you they have been a breath of fresh air! Our first meeting went really well and they put us on a plan... and thats where we are now.

I will fill in more details later, I really want to talk about what God did through me in that year and how it has helped me!

More to come! <3