Radical.

What is the meaning of radical. Am I radical because I believe that abortion is wrong period. Am I radical because I believe that to follow Jesus means to give up everything else. Are we radical because we will gladly move, sell our processions and leave our family to go where God is calling us.

The answers to these questions would seem obvious to me. NO. I am not radical I am just following the example set before me- JESUS. I am reading the BIBLE and taking it for what it says.

So why in this culture among fellow Brothers and Sisters in Christ, is what I stated above radical? It saddens my heart to see our culture get farther and farther away from the truth. When Christians would rather live in their little box where everything is good and great, rather then be confronted with the improvised neighborhood right around the corner.

I believe we have to take a stand. This is the time to be serious to not back away. To not be afraid of man. For what can Man do to us?!

I am feeling more and more annoyed with the "comfortableness" of our culture, of the material "security that in all reality is false.

God has called us to GO and MAKE DISCIPLES. And in this culture with the lies that everyone is being faced with daily, it couldn't be more important!!

I am ready to CHANGE the WORLD!!

Well...

Here are some fun videos from the news this month :)

And if you want a good laugh listen to this!!

Our Great Creator

My sis shared this on her blog and I had to share it!!

We serve such an amazing God! Its so hard to comprehend his maginitude- this video shares a little enlightment

dreamer.

well i am a dreamer... i am the one that plans out everything perfectly in her head, and believes that, how she thought is how it is going to be.

i am in the waiting.

i am relying.

i am trusting.

but why does my desire seem so far away. i have been through a lot, my heart is on my sleeve. i am anticipating good things, yet having a hard time thinking they will happen.

God has seemed very far from me, and my desire to seek him out just has not been there.

Monday night husband and I watched Father of Lights and it changed my attitude, my feeling. God is so real and he is in the waiting. He is in the waiting for me! I knew then I need to put everything back on him, I was getting tired.

I want to be in fully surrender to him, recklessly abandoned. I started reading a book, that we have had for a while. I love it when God has you get things but then they don't interest you until the moment He knows you need to hear it!

I was feeling good, the sun was shining and I knew that where ever God took me, I was ready.

but then unexpectedly i felt like i was knocked to the ground.

I was in shock. I didn't know what to think. I just cried.

I know God has a plan and I am going to walk out in Faith. My emotions and feelings might be out of whack for a little bit, but I have a Daddy who can give me peace and can be strong while i am weak.

Its like the footsteps poem-

                                  The Lord replied,

"The times when you have

seen only one set of footprints,

is when I carried you."

God is carrying me now. And i can take comfort in that.

I am thankful for what I do have, for my husband, my mentor Faith, my lovingly positive sister and my family.

Thank you Jesus for being so FAITHFUL! I have nothing to fear.

Life is a Journey

It seems I have been on a road with lots of turns, and detours, bumps and hills!

A lot as been thrown at me lately my mentor and Aunt had a baby boy on Fathers Day- and oh my he is precious! He was having complications and was in the hospital for 10 days... during that time I went to help with her girls and got to spend some time with Josiah, my new little buddy, and my Aunt Faith.

 

Even though it was a hard week, Faith encouraged me so much! She fully put her trust in God, and knew without a shadow of a doubt that no matter what the outcome was that God was in control and had a plan. Josiah was diagnosed with Downs Syndrome, they said it will be slight... He is breast feeding very well, and the doctors are amazed how well he is doing!


I am so thankful for my family! They are great reminders on how constant God is!!





Now my other bumps have been personal....Going to my new doctor has been a big learning experience...I am learning all about what your body should be doing every month and how mine is different! They had to cancel my last cycle because I went from not any mature follicles to having an over and abundance of follicles! Thats how God works right :) They were worried they would all turn into eggs and that I could have high risk multiple pregnancies so we are back to square one, but I am excited about what is to come, I was a little sad at first...But I know God's timing is perfect, and while I might be getting help from Doctor's its God's hand ultimately that will move!

I think about all the times I had wished I was pregnant, like I really wanted to be pregnant with Faith! I thought that would be so awesome, but I am thankful I wasn't having a baby or 9 months pregnant when she was having Josiah, I am thankful I got to leave my life at home for 6 days and go down there to help!!


Another thing that is on my heart right now is little Nora Rose she was diagnosed with Trisomy 18- and just turned 73 days old :) God has his hand on this little girl! Her parents just got an updated diagnoses on her lungs though... Please pray with me that God would continue to touch this little girl!

Bridge over Troubled waters

Well, its been a rough week... filled with hope, then disappointment. But God is looking out! I have been deeply comforted and encouraged through worship and the people he has placed in my life. I am so very thankful that God has my back and that there is nothing I need to fear.

my lil Fedor giving me some loving comfort

I know God has a plan and I want his plan to be my plan. I want to live a life of his Calling! We will be having some changes happen in the next couple of weeks that some would call radical or crazy...but God doesn't lead us to be comfortable he wants us to be willing to do what he wants and when he wants us to do it! Husband and I know this and are seeking him and believing for big things!

I left off last post with our beginning journey of trying to get pregnant... Both Matt's and my desire is to be parents- to raise our children to know God and his amazing love for us and to develop their own relationship with him.

So its been a long year- with the desire always there at the forefront.

After that "false-positive" we started to actively seek answers. I started going to an OBGYN, that I will not name... it was a bad experience :( I went on Clomid and hated every minute of it, it made me feel so funny and i would get hot flushes all the time, you would think i was going through menopause... it was bad and i stayed on that for about 5 months with absolutely nothing! And from what the doctor could tell was that i had not ovulated at all.... so in November i really felt I didn't want to go to the OBGYN anymore and i for sure did not want to take the stupid CLOMID! so we took a break... and i would get my cycle randomly, and all the time wishing that this would be my last period. I started taking herbal supplements which i was excited for cause i will always look for the most natural way....

So when nothing was really happening and i was not being consistent I went back to my family doctor who i have not seen since that heart wrenching day. We talked and it was really good- I was feeling more at peace with everything- that year had been a long journey and God really used it to help me grow and understand more about his character, and i am very very thankful for that!

She suggested I go to a Fertility Specialist- she said they would be able to run more tests and pinpoint the problem- so she set us up with a doctor in Grand Rapids who also has and office in Lansing a couple days of week.

Let me tell you they have been a breath of fresh air! Our first meeting went really well and they put us on a plan... and thats where we are now.

I will fill in more details later, I really want to talk about what God did through me in that year and how it has helped me!

More to come! <3

My Future is Bright.

IT was a beautiful day... The kind of day where you want to quit your job and stay outside- but unfortunately for me that cannot be done.

                                 Someday...

Someday that will be the case. Someday I will set my own schedule. Someday I will stay home and be a mommy.
                                Someday....
                             
But back to today, we had a good day.

XO